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If you were alive. This should have been our 11th month. If you were alive.

I was listening to music just now. Then you came into my mind. Then I missed you. I just started crying. Tears of grief. Grieving and mourning because of losing you. I did not want to. I still love you!

I miss you.

Wish you were here.

March

March sucks. I lost him. I mean, I just found out that he is dead :( then I got 7th in class. Then my dance group did badly for a "competition" :( then found out about best friend. I just feel like I'm losing her too :( do I deserve all this????

All she wants to do is to forget

Why??? What the hell was I doing? Checking our conversations over and over again. How it started in one sentence and end up in one essay.. Why do I still miss you? Why do I still think of you? Why is it so hard to just forget you and move on? Is it because you are the first guy I've ever loved? Is that it? Or is it because you opened my mind to the word LOVE? You showed me what love was all about. You gave me the reason to LOVE. You made LIFE worth LIVING. My STORY worth TELLING! You made everything WORTH IT! Damn, I love you!

I want to forget

I just want to forget you. Sometimes, when i feel like nobody is listening, I'm just gonna put my feelings and everything here. You don't have to know who I am.